the world, society, government, economy needs money to keep their thing going. all those things depend on money. without money none of those things could work, because how could society not depend on money for the new styles, or government for treatys and laws, and economy for wall street. money is an essential.

my ex started saving for a car a year into our relationship and that cut off all expenses of having a girlfriend, i started to pay for myself all the time. my food, my clothes, any presents were basically cut off from being bought unless it was by me. it shouldnt be that way; that is wrong and it scared me.

no girl should be treated that way- every girl in the world deserves to be spoiled by someone amazing. even the biggest hoe deserves to be spoiled by one guy because deep down inside shes a girl who wants to have a loving relationship. my mom always told me “find a guy that values you more than money”.  i feel like my whole life im working and that im going to have to forever, and it makes me so upset because i dont want to end up like my mom. i think of my aunt ala and i honestly think shes the luckiest woman in the whole world, i hope to have a husband like my uncle (her husband); he does everything for her.

him- hes a amazing, his smile makes me smile, hes sweet and genuine. but he doesnt spend money on me. he only buys me food, and thats nice but sometimes i wish he would buy me something at the mall every once in a while. i dont mean to sound conceded, but i just want to know that im worth his money…. and i guess lately i havent been. it scares the shit out of me thinking that maybe this is sign that he will end up like my ex and break my heart again. i dont want to marry a guy like my dad. in my dreams, i want to spoiled the shit out of- with love & affection and money. sometimes it makes me question our relationship because my moms always right and if what she says is true, then he doesnt value me over money and then in that care i dont want to be with someone like that. i guess what it comes down to is.. worth. i want to feel worth it.  i know money shouldnt mean so much but i watched my family fall apart because of it,i watch my body get weak working for it so its important to me. i just wish he understood and didnt see it as me being a bratty-money-wanting girlfriend because im not. he could buy me a $20 or $50 thing it doesnt matter the amount it matters the fact that i was worth the price and worth.